Everyday I am forced to do all the chores in the house while my brothers get to go to Work, come back, and act like literal Sheep in the House chewing grass in front of me and will constantly get bull-angry at me, call me names, mock me, make fun of me, repeat everything that I say and spit back at me in a Clown matter like they intend to mock me, but whenever I cite them on this in the house, they absolutely deny two-and-two to why I even brought this and that up just to contradict me and push me to shut up, unaware are committing blasphemy in the process, and have the nerve to tell people negative things about me, hence when I do talk them, they ignore me on purpose - so nothing goes over their heads.
They would rather proceed to go to Home Church again where they will never talk, read scripture, commit to slandering me as untruthful, yet will not read the Bible, or quote Scripture. From an argument that they cause due to slandering me over food purchased from my Food Stamps, they accuse me constantly and even thought that I was "chipping in." Often times I am being criticized, "-I thought you were a Christian," and passages are forced upon me based on negative response timings.
I can even point out 1 John 3:14-16 today that occurs to Murder that's being dealt upon me through scapegoating. I am told by my Aunt that it's of depressive matters. No, this is scapegoating.
If you're so Christian, why is it that the Word of God fails to compress you to read? Instead, I am mocked because they state they have beliefs, backing no beliefs. Precisely. You cannot back your own beliefs, denying God's Word, when the entire Bible consults to being based since the beginning of Time upon Creation of this Planet from Genesis all-the-way to the End Times, then coming to tell me that I'm just spewing Greek Mythology when my entire argument on my Website has always been due to reasoning of Idolatry in this World being accepted over Christ, Jesus, himself is becoming a problem.
Are we not paying attention to the Confederate Flag removal!? Have you ever read Albert Pike's Quote about WWIII.
"...Well, these are your beliefs." No. They are not my beliefs. They are Warnings.
Last Night, I went through such an atrocity having listened to my oldest disabled brother speak to me about our Aunt having taken him for disability. If you can call yourself Christian, read this, and still think there's something wrong with me just by skimming and hunching little-thought but putting the establishment to further denial of what I've been arguing about while denying the character of who your God while since Ancient Times, when many Biblical Books in the Holy Bible says upon reading this far, and many are just sitting back while our freedoms are being taken away here in America. There is something wrong, and there's good given chance that God can judge everyone very soon in the nick-of-time and send you to your proper place because of the divine refusal to repent, when the separation of the Sheep and Goats can appear at any moment. I am not the Judge. He is. He always has been. You can lie to me and tell me straight up that Judgement is not coming, none of it is coming, and I will Woe to you. For nobody can know the day or the Hour, but the Season is recorded in the Bible with along the Signs to when atmospheric changes begin to occur.
So I get told by my oldest brother that I have to apologize again to my Aunt a second time, over a hurtful letter given to her that she has delivered broken promises since our Dad passed and won't come over for a dinner and be a family ever since losing her house. The Family on her side backs her over Money, claiming that she does not own us anything when that wasn't the point. So a small drift occurred. A drift occurred since the night, whom I was never told that my brother had apologized from over the phone, and if so, was done on purpose just to scapegoat me while I'm the only one seeing that our family situation wasn't being looked upon a Compensational Family of relevancy of wanting to be like one.
Then my brother brings up about this Bank Account that my grandmother puts up for me. "I'm like, see it's money." Then my brother continues telling me that they would not give me the money because of the way I've been acting even though they are not even better themselves, based on the denial of attitude that they are giving me forcing neliefs on me that have no explanation to beliefs, ever being beliefs, and forcefully telling me to listen to them. And yet, I still get mocked for purchasing stuff when my Television has still not been delivered back to our House.
From the past couple of Months:
1) I bought a DVD Portable Player for $50
2) I bought a Universal Stand for my iPad for price range of $30
3) Bought a $40 Bluetooth Keyboard.
4) Bought a Bluetooth Speaker - Just $8.
5) A few $5.00 DVDs.
While my Brother STILL blows his money practically everyday on $17 of Value on meals at Carl's Jr, Criticizes me and constantly buys up to two films every month, and I get wrongly accused for spending less, conservatively, while being accused of buying Junk. My other goes and purchases recently the Mass Effect Trilogy on the PS3 when he already knows that I have the Xbox 360 Trilogy, myself.
Why? Because I've been trying to turn my 1st Generation iPad into a Mini Laptop. Because Money is such aspen issue, I'm even looking into loaning my iPad out with the above purchased for Church usages on Sunday Services for $10. I'd even be willing to give $5 back to the Church if need be for Donations.
I've barely been getting paid close to less than $200. Barely even $150. It's very hard right now to even get into another job, as is, it was hard for me originally, and today, it still is. Just anti everything. "People need more than two years of Kitchen experience." I tell them this. It doesn't stop there. I get yelled at. I get told, "I won't apply for another, or, a better job," even though I have been and am being told in Interviews that I should apply for desk positions over in Anaheim. What do they say? "I don't believe you." I'm struggling, can they not see this?
And so what, I'm a Freelance Web Designer. I'm trying ideas, but everytime I do, I get mocked.
"I am constantly am being cussed at, being called a little sh**, or a dumb***."
Everyday, I don't get scolded to just apply, I get mocked as my stuff purchased as Junk, and get mocked of my Job due to their lack of Compensational while they are causing me Psyche Issues based on the abuse having spent with them all these years. I am about ready to turn this into a legal issue due to personal abuse.
My brother brings it up to my brother about me and quote, "-I know, he'll just spend it on stupid sh**." He actually said this, and my other brother goes, "I know he would, even on Games."
Yet, what he doesn't realize is that my other brother is constantly getting on my nerves will actually take money from me like he always does by the end of each month. I told them this, and they denied it.
Jason tells me that she agrees with my Aunt, then while telling him on this later, he starts denying me he ever said it when he did. I'm like, "...what!?" I just like how my brother can defend my Aunt on bringing up just the Kids, when she kept taking on too many things at once to why she wouldn't come over then cutting us off of plans. Like, what ever happened to the plans to go look at Christmas Lights that my Brother brought up to be arranged!? That fell through. For an entire year spent living at home, no one really came over, then it came to selling the house, and even so, the promises that were made never happened. Then my Aunt had the nerve to tell my brother about my License when she purposely started increasing phone call activity on my Father into, before it became a (day-by-day) thing, to have my Father go out constantly to eat out. This drove me from ever going out to learn how to drive. Even so, after my dad passed, when I got my Permit again, my brother chickened out on teaching me to drive.
I can't even touch my Computer anymore, or even access my Website in their presence. And when I get done applying, I am forced to apply more, and am now being told to apply over ten places in one day, and am put under a stressful impression to keep going. If not, they get bull-angry at me. When I am pushed to evening hours I get told to shut the computer down (this happens constantly). I make an issue about it because I can never use the computer when I want to, and they tell me that I don't apply enough.
Since the night that my friend came over late at night, who pm my brother ferociously slammed the door on just because my brothers instilled of me not going out even though I'm over eighteen to be leaving the house late just to go down to 7/11 for Fluids since after my Dad passed. Obviously at this time, they were not cooping well. Instead, they were bullying me. Taking me for granite. My Middle School friend whom I knew since the 6th Grade made a big deal that night, "and even told them straight based on how they were governing me that night and were Controlling Me." My brothers get off in telling him to go home, denying me of ever inviting him over when I did in fact, over Facebook. I got upset this night. They accused him of cussing, calling him an addict, when in fact, all we ever did while hanging out was talk about our life problems just to get over them. Today, I've kept distance, but to their actions, it's pretty shameful that I am being controlled by my brothers and will not listen to reason.
I am even being threatened that they would kick me out of this Condo. Today, I am about willing to make living arrangements with a friend if willing. I already have enough Mobile Entertainment Contraptions to launch Web Designs. I they are going to continue to that me like this, I won't I will leave them. If they want to claims that they are Independent, then fine, so help me, I would. For I am Interdependent. With, or without others. Choice. If they want to continue with the threats, get angry and bashful, so help me, I will leave them.
I can't even hardly use the computer enough as is in this house in front of them for Art. I'm always being ridiculed and am accused of being unproductive, even though I have hobbies such as Video Gaming, making Artwork, devoting most of my time towards a Portfolio via Almanac Website. Nobody will come over to address this from the family, instead will further deny of wanting to and will exalt claim, "-I don't know, because I don't come over." And I'm like,"THEN STOP GETTING INVOLVED WITH THEIR NON-BELIEVABLE CONTINUANCES."
Like I said, they even tell me this all the time and purposely do it all the time to where I cannot tell them anything anymore, "I'm not listening to you." And do you know what they do? Play escapist. They leave the House. They never tell me where they are going. I'm always the one who has to. Like I've said. "Controlling Me," because I'm living amongst them while they are flat-out in denial, and are very abusive.
I made a specific agreement with the Food Stamps Company that I would be using my Card for myself and I prep for my own food. Instead, they are getting pissed off at me. Months ago, I was told to apply for Food Stamps so I wouldn't have to give off so much money. I did, and my brother is even taking my Card away so that I won't go touching it. Instead, I'm being controlled to use it for the family while they are abusing me in the household and by the way they mock me. They are buying specifically of foods to their choice. LOTS of Spicy Foods. When I call the, on this, they deny me and fail to put two-and-two together and will even claim, "what does this have to do with this." This was never the deal.
When my brother gives me my foods, it's never of my own choice now. It's complaining. If they can make a big deal about me only taking two frozen burritos close to dinner-time when they are not home, and accuse me of going into the food, then fine. I'm about ready to leave them. If they try anything, try kicking me out of the house if they do kick me out of the house, I will in fact turn this into a legal issue because of abuse and for psyche abuse.
Every trace of blame they make on me for being placed in a Ward was because of this specific College Girl that I no longer associate but wasn't exactly the case, the other times was because my brothers were abusive since after going for Counseling with my brothers, which my two brothers in the household even put blame on me over chores , yet the more they keep bringing this up as "act of depression," yet are causing Psyche Issues towards is just revolting. My disabled brother never looks at my other brother for fault. Never does. Just complains behind his back. They both do to each other. They are four years apart pushing thirty, and it gets atrocious when you realize that it becomes stressful, and when you approach the subject to stress, they get angry about it and tell me that I'm in no position to be stressful, or tired.
I'm constantly am having to commit to doing things for my brothers inside and out of this Condo Home and during dinner time while he sits all-day on the Couch (even all day). He demands me or my other brother to get him a fork, sauce, glass, ice, all sorts. He will hardly get up, and when he does it's usually from an argument when he gets upset. He hardly ever feeds the dogs, or takes them out to the bathroom in our backyard. Every week, I'm being pushed to pull weeds back there like it's some eyesore to my brother when they're not even a big deal.
They won't even bring the Kitchen Table over to the Television. My oldest brother (who is disabled, who is also filing for Social Security) only yells at me. He does this on purpose. Then shifts to my brother so they both can yell at me together. This is how it is. Scapegoating me.
They want to claim that they are more Christian than me, then fine. When I leave, good luck. I even told my older brother that our other brother will rather continue to dictate you to do everything yourself.
The sad thing is, my older brother owns the Mobile Home, but my other brother makes the decisions in the House, and today, they are not pleasant. All he buys is Potato Chips, Spicy Foods and now Seafood Salads, and Soda. There is no Health specifics to be dealt. Nothing but, "I'm the one shopping here, not you!!" They don't even look at the prices and expect me to douse my money for them like Creampuffs while he's making $700 Bi-Weekly, or $300, and I'm barely making enough. It's terrible.
I even blocked my brother on Facebook. He doesn't want to Friend. Instead, he keeps spamming me messages of Job Applications, especially on positions that I have no interest. Like, this is the problem with Christians, and Science can even tell you this. The actions of the tree being the self of that specific person can determine the oust-ridge of their Works based on Good or Dark intentions. Like me, I Research to provide a point that this is indeed Spiritual Warfare. To not believe in the Supernatural while the Bible clearly says that all have fallen short to God correlates that many Christians today who aren't showing signs of struggle, but are acting in accordance to denote instead of learning are possibly anti-Christian, because that's all they do is search for Negativity.
I'm being accused today that I turned into another Paul (a step-brother) who went and performed identity fraud to my family in the past many times, which isn't true. Like I've said. False Witness is rising!
Whenever I pray, I'm being told still to stop talking to myself, let things go, while my family of such a time yesterday caused by my our Aunt upon talking employs that a grudge is being held. I let this go. I even blocked my Aunt about it. I go, "I'm Praying." That's not true. You talk to yourself, yet even though I pointed it out that I'm theorizing to myself, and I get told negativity while day-by-day comes, while "God Bless America" is going to Hell for Caesar.
Do You REALLY Know Jesus?
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Do You REALLY Know The Devil?
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"You are backing your own beliefs. Bringing up Greek Mythology-"
Then explain to me why this entire world orchestrates and tampers with so many Religions that link to Moon Worship and of Egyptian which is of Ra? Why are the Pyramids used today in effort to define Time through Astronomical Consensus? So many People today deny that God has ever had an uplifting in their Minds to situate Christ knoweldge, but givenly, the Research Scholars here in California are being shined on as speculation nowadays. It's pretty terrible. So how is their word any different than there's if the contradictor is criticizes what he chooses not to given into knowing but submitting Blame on the Devil? For what reason does this prove you don't know the History that brought to your Church having permission to remedy on topics such Spiritual Warfare, then, if you're not even sure that they are even happening towards a coming Beast Kingdom and removal of Christians from the face of the Earth?