From the midst of doing so, I've allowed Girls who were roughly my age since then to fulfill better lives with meaning amongst someone who can take better care of them. I didn't do it simply because I despised Women. At the time, I was shy, and I simply knew that everything wouldn't work out for any of them and would probably make matters worse.
I sought to change.
It wasn't the change that I expected.
Today, I sort of learned. Ideally, I still have a ways to go. I know I'm not perfect.
I went about it all the wrong way. I went into a dark corner.
It wasn't the kind of corner that I had hoped to see to find someone who could understand.
I mean, when I think of the Future, I think of an era of futuristic distractions - all intentions to impress and promote good. That's what I see for a Future. I can still think maybe that Christ is intentionally in everything I see things from? Let alone, Christ is watching. I didn't think I was of the mind to dive into a relationship. I went about it the wrong way in my College Days. Surely, but to who was around, I certainly found no one, given to where I'm at.
All I can really do from recent experiences is to Change. Work on Artwork, try to better myself. Help others. The growing issue is the People I'm living with who don't want to acknowledge my passion for Christ. I can't even keep any Crosses. And these are coming from People who treat it all as a Religion.
Honestly, I don't understand a lot of People up to this point, really. I see things as a Christian among Christianity. Not as a Catholic. If this be the case, then my words are nothing to the Catholic. Should they fear 'em, let them. To the truthful Catholic who sees good as I do, I applaud them. Effortlessly, they choose not to believe in the Truth, but instead, they justify themselves recklessly when sinning. This is not living. This is interchangeable recon-structure.
Maybe I'm better off going down to a Club, or something.
I was able to have some answers confirmed, like, who I belonged to.
I know I chose Christ for a reason. I feel the wanting to tell People to come to Christianity, but whom now is the tricky part. Living with a family of people who do not believe in any of the stuff I tell them to.